Wednesday, July 8, 2009

I've been awake since the 4:30 am wake up call of a child having a bad dream. He was talking about a dog or something and crying. That is really abnormal for him. But after a few hugs and kisses and scratches on the back, he eventually calmed down. Then he woke up completely, smiling at me and saying, "Good night and big balls" After that he headed back off to dream land. For those of you who don't know, it's Wipeout. We are somewhat addicted to that show. It's great family time for us when we watch it and are able to laugh out loud.

Alex has been talking so much more lately. His vocabulary is expanding so very quickly. Lately it's Bolt. He loves that movie, so every DVD has become Bolt, until you show him the case. He pushes it away and wants something else. He looks at his books before bedtime and points to certain pictures. He tried to say spider, but not quite. He's still all about his, "ball" and "duck, duck" and "dog". Everything is "mine" or pointing to the iPhone saying "mama". Yes that's momma's phone. He knows not to touch it unless I let him watch something on youtube. Then he has to be sitting in my lap for me to let him hold it. I didn't pay that kind of money to have it thrown around. It has a good case, but those things can be messed up very easily.

Ryan is beginning to regress somewhat in his excitement about kindergarten. Some of his friends have been leaving from daycare going to other things over the summer. I think he's starting to realize that he won't be will all of his friends this fall. It's sad to think that all of the kids he's been with since he was 9 weeks old will be going their separate ways. Such is life and growing up. His latest craze is the garden they are growing at school. He came home the other day telling me all they had planted, and how they are going to watch cucumbers and tomatoes grow. I wish some days I could throw a garden in the back yard, but don't really know where I would time to find to help it grow. I'm sure I would if that was what I really wanted.

What I really want now is to lose weight. I've been overweight my entire life. I've had enough and am trying really hard to fix it. I've been hitting the gym about 4 days a week, the other three working 12 hour night shifts at the hospital. I just can't go on those days. I'm all about Turbo kick, and kickboxing, and power playt. I've lost a few pounds, but am starting to lose some body fat percentage. For that, I know the muscle is building and the weight loss will come. I need to be healthy for my boys as they grow up. I want to be around for a long time to see my grandkids. It truly hit home when I had a patient that was younger than myself, pregnant with her second child, and weighed 363 pounds. She already had chronic hypertension and couldn't sleep unless she sat up. Really, lose ME and you could be healthier and breathe if you were to lie down. Anyway, it was just a reminder of where I really don't want to go EVER in my life. I pray for strength and determination throughout this and know it will pay off.

Have a blessed day